Daydreams and Nightmares

Lately I've been catching myself doing a hell of a lot of daydreaming now that I've been spending quite a considerable amount of time at home, thanks to not only my mother having surgery but my boyfriend having to work.  Mostly it's just me listening to music and going off into la la land about me actually playing the music which makes me pine away at being able to play some type of instrument.  It's actually annoying to realize that you may not have any type of musical talent what so ever or even having the money to go and get lessons in my case considering I already own a guitar. 

Now on to the other part of today's topic.  I've been having nightmares a hell of a lot again lately.  Some of it consists of me fighting off zombies and then the rest of it which seems to be the majority is of my boyfriend breaking up with me for one reason or another.  I have no idea why this seems to be happening.  It doesn't matter what I eat or drink before bed.  I don't know if it's just my stress level.  Ugh. 

In other news I think I've finally gotten partially through my artists block that's been there for several years.  Mostly what I've been wanting to do is start writing again.  I haven't written a damn thing in ages. Apart from the occasional blog every once in a blue moon.  I finally broke down and started watching the Doctor Who series and I've loved every minute wasted on it.  Lol.  So far my favorite is Doc. #10.

What to do.

So lately I've been thinking a lot about what I'm wanting to do with my life.  I know for sure I don't want to work at a gas station for the rest of my life.  I also know that inspiration doesn't come easily for me, so the art world isn't really an option at the moment, more of a hobby.  I'm thinking the computer world.  IT work. Fixing computers.  Blah blah blah.  I've grown up with it thanks to my Dad so it kinda comes easily to me. Although the past few years I've been lacking in it. I dunno. You guys tell me what you think.

Things to do when you're stoned.

This is brought to you by the High Times daily calendar.

Stop stressing.
Go see a local band.
Gaze at the stars.
Take a nice big toke, squint a little, and the Big Dipper looks a lot like a pipe.

Shake your booty.
Do it yourself.
Have a good cry.
It's not only cleansing; it also give you a good alibi for having red eyes.


Play badminton.
Rent a movie.
Make a to-do list.
First on the list: Stop coughing... okay, seriously, you may not always feel like doing something productive while stoned, but it can actually be a great time to get highly organized. 

Floss.
Take a walk.
Cook dinner.
You may not be hungry at the moment, but you be in about ten minutes -trust us- and no amount of store-bought munchies can satisfy a stoner like a home-cooked meal.

Study mythology.
Skydive.
Read the newspaper.
Just make sure you keep your bullshit detectors fully engaged.


Stand on your head.
Cultivate a fake French accent.
Doodle.
Bonus points: Make a little flipbook on the edge of a stack of Sticky notes.

Throw a water balloon.
Do the robot dance.
Practice your Cheech & Chong imitation: "Dave's not here, man..."     


Hunt for buried treasure.
Draw a self-portrait.
Watch the clouds go by.
Yes, we know - that one in the middle definitely looks just like Jerry Garcia.  
 

Why do I bother?

Why do I bother writing a blog or even attempt it when nobody reads it or posts comments? ugh.

Insomnia Hit Again... Obviously I got bored...

Music Shuffle Survey

- TO TAKE THIS SURVEY, SIMPLY PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE -
- AND ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WITH THE TITLE OF THE SONG THAT COMES ON -
[it's better if you don't cheat and don't skip any songs.]
What is your name? Or what should your name be? Paris no jyosei Marie - The Pillows
How is your life going?  Photograph - Shiny Toy Guns
What is your nickname? In The End - Linkin Park
What is your theme song? Stationary Stationary - Anberlin
What is your best friend's theme song?  This Is The House That Doubt Built - A Day To Remember
How is your life going to turn out? Xchet Steadmanx - Close Your Eyes
Will you get married? Boom - POD
Will you have kids? One - Simple Plan (how ironic...)
What will your job be? Therapy - Smile Empty Soul
Did you/will you finish school? Not Applicable - Lemon Demon
Who is your best friend? Idiot Box - The Aquabats
Who is or will be your significant other? Mr. Woman - Electric Six
Who do you like? Bitches - Hollywood Undead (lol what is my music player telling me?)
How will you die? Give Up The Funk - Glee
How do you feel right now? Give 'Em Hell Kid - My Chemical Romance (HELL YEAH!!)
What is your favorite song? From Now On We Are Enemies - Fall Out Boy
How could you describe your parents? Robot Theme Song - The Aquabats
Your best friend[s]? Back Home - Yellowcard
Your boss? Suicide Sunday - The Friday Night Boys
Your significant other [or crush...]? Darts of Pleasure - Franz Ferdinand
Yourself? Breathe Today - Flyleaf
What is your best feature?  Here It Goes Again - OkGo
What will you be / should you be, profession-wise? Don't Speak Liar - We The Kings
How could you describe this survey? Battle - Daft Punk {Tron Soundtrack}
What makes you angry?  My Heart, Your Hands - Dommin
What makes you sad?  Summertime - My Chemical Romance
What makes you happy?  Stay Young - We The Kings
What makes you dance?  Around The World - Daft Punk
What is your favorite color? The Best of Me - The Starting Line
How would you describe yourself? Swing - Taking Back Sunday
Who is your worst enemy? Little Busters - The Pillows
Who do you hate?  Blown Away - Shiny Toy Guns
Who do you love?  This Is The Best Day Ever - My Chemical Romance
Who do you lust after? Fighting - Yellowcard
I wish... I Can't Do It Alone - 3OH!3
I want to...  Blue Jay Way - The Secret Machines
I want to kill... Paralyzed - The Used
I want to eat... The Other Way - Weezer
I am... We Can Work It Out - S Club 7
My best feature is... Waiting - Shiny Toy Guns
My eyes are... Little Fury Bugs - Death Cab For Cutie
My hair is... Bad Romance - Lady Gaga (HAHAHAHA!!)
My face is... Closure - Dommin
You should... Ask Me Now - Blindside
Words of advice: You Don't Look The Same - Jet
How do others see me? Idiot Control Now - Lemon Demon
How do I see myself? You Got It All... Wrong - The Hives

Officially "Single"

Okay so the wonderful guy that I had been dating, we're obviously broken up now.  The other day I said some stuff I shouldn't have said and I regret every word.  He thought for a couple of days about what he should do and well he decided on just being friends was the right decision.  I can't shake the feeling of still wanting to be with him.  I'm crying at almost every thought of being alone.  Ugh.  I'm pathetic.  I honestly hate being single.  I'm afraid I'm going to turn out being a spinster for the rest of my life.  I'm already not living up to my parents expectations.  What's next?  I'm constantly disappointing people.  I can't seem to do anything right.  I dunno I guess I'm beating myself up.  I don't know what else to do but vent.

Somebody deserves a good curb stomping

Okay so I'm currently sitting near a group of guys playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl in the Gamer's Paradise lounge at Lorain CCC.  There's a guy in particular who's so fucking loud  it makes me want to punch his face in. I don't care about sensoring my blog anymore. This dude irritates me beyond belief. According to one of my friends he goes by "Big Country".  Whatever dude.  Stop being so overbearing, and complain about how people mess with you.  You provoke most of this shit!! Get over yourself dude!

At the time that I wrote this I was sitting near him... Blargh.

Okay. REALLY?!!

I HATE SNOW!!!!  Seriously Ohio... I've lived here most of my life and today I'm officially sick of it. Like honestly, when it snows here, it really f*cking snows!!! We don't get the simple little snow fall, we get the blizzard that lasts for hours. Ugh... I've got some pictures a friend of mine posted on her facebook of how much snow we have currently.

 

Anyways, rectently I started noticing that Alternative Press Magazine has been doing the issue covers in a matte finish. When and why did they start doing that? Can anyone tell me? If you have an answer please let me know.

BTW... I am still watching Gene Simmons' Family Jewels.  This time it's season 2. Ahh... guilty pleasure...

Insomnia big time.

Okay I've got like a really bad case of insomnia tonight. Like I feel tired as hell, but my brain will not shut the f*ck up. Sorry to sensor my own stuff but there's no telling who's reading my blog. Course at this point I shouldn't really care.

The past few hours I've been watching the first season of Gene Simmons' Family Jewels. Funny show. I do have to say Gene's son Nick is pretty damn hot. -drool- Can't help it. My metaphorical brain to mouth filter is non-exsistent at this point in my sleepiness. Yes I do have a wonderful boyfriend but even he knows I blatently will point out people I find hot. Hell, even he does it. But anyways I'm going to post some photos of Nick Simmons to prove my point.

Maybe I should start doing hot guy of the week or something... Sounds like a plan...
Moving on.


I'm looking for ideas of things to post. God I just realized I have horrid spelling, and I read books as a hobby!!! WTF?!


See what happens when I'm going through Insomnia? This is ridiculous. I have ADD when tired... wait I have ADD almost all the time and OCD. Blargh.


Anyways here's a song that's been in my head all week and I love it.